30 October 2006 @3:19 PM
sian the start of holiday...got nth to do...play com whole day...out of teh blue gonna invited in a conference among the hapkido ppl...what the hell in teh conference got 7 ppl but only 4 toking..teh rest thress nv really tok..tehn only two gals...me and my fren inside only...wat the hell.trapped inside with all the horny guys..toking abt dirty things..wa piang..i gif up la...tok to them vomit blood only..one of the guy call ryan,that guy he look decent but then he is not...when we say one big horny mushroom all small horny mushroom..they scold us saying what small..wat the hell...we toking abt character...horny...then they think until dunnoe where...scold us...siao lor...inside the conference room is dirty arguement between guys and gals...wa...can faint arh..the guys are simply too horny..we gals..who is pure and clean de...can't fight with them..forget it man...so even guys look decent does not mean they are one...sad lar...he look so guai but not guai what can we do...sua lor..they indecent their problem...gonna in jail we laugh...hmph...all horny guys...
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29 October 2006 @10:41 PM
every sunday training i sure gonna scolding de...no fail...no matter is in what sure gonna de...sian la...go there just gonna scolding..but betta then at home do nth...that one can rot then decay...then i dunnoe what happen i think the worms and all will eat me ba...haha...jk...today training a bit different..cause i injured my tumb...haix..sad lor...dunnoe why today everybody like no mood to train like tt...maybe is the starting too tiring alr...so all energy finish alr...then still have to train surely look no mood...for me is because of the scolding that i get today is quite bad plus injured finger...then no mood liao lor..quite a few tym i realli dun feel like going training but then if dun go at home do what...waiting to rot meh..so find sumthing kill my tym lor..or not rot,decay then gonna eat by insect veri sad de leh...after training we saw this guy who is training with us also lar... name:mark ...at the food court so we call him lor...me and vincent both call him shout his name but he nv even turn his head..wa the hell..shout so loud distance so short cannot hear meh...we all laugh like hell la...call call call but cannot hear..after we eat we walk past him we say we call u so loud u nv even turn ur head and look...then he say i tot is other ppl calling other mark..wa piang...so many mark meh...at least when u heard ur name turn ur head also wun die rite...summore we call so long so loud..no wonnder is police force de lar...beware of everybody...so next tym u haf any police fren u dun call them...no use de...waste ur energy only...
i was just wondering what the fuck happen to the blogspot..cannot post..keep on error error and error...
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@10:36 PM
at first when i just know him i tot he was not like those teacher or boss who shows favourtism or putting personal affair into serious work...but today..he changed my thinking...from today i could feel that he does show favourtism or putting a personal affair into serious work...feelings dun cheat...he is trying to hid it...but actions and words betrayed him...sum of my frens says,' no he does not show any favourtism to any students', another fren of mine from his words i knows that he feels that ,that so called "teacher" is baised...he was biased towards students who are betta...sum students who is not good in the things that he teach but is close with him privately in the lesson he shows favourtism...especially on the day when we are having test...it shows...i dun think he shows it in the marks la...hopefully not...but from other way...actions and words does betray ppl...even he can lied to us he can't lied to himself...at tyms his acting was good..but that was when he was in a important function party...etc la...other then tt his acting is kind of sucks...i dun noe is it because i can read ppl eyes or am i sensitive...from his actions or facial espression(ps dunnoe how to spell) i can see that he is hiding sumthing...and i even know what is he hiding... once i had ask him how he think abt me..his ans no comment...i dun believe it at all...i will only ask this kind of question when i sense sumthing not rite...like when i sense that u hate me or what i will then ask...from tt person answer i wun believe it totally i will observe how he treat me and how he treat other i then "judge" how much can i believe in ur words...like he say no comment...but i think in his heart he got alot...is just that he dun want to say it to hurt me...he is that kind of person who knows what to say and what not to...y the heck must he hid it from me...when he can't even lie to me...i was really wondering abt it...y... to all my frens...when i ask u for comment...no matter what just tell me how u think abt me...dun hid it from me...u hid it from me i will behave like what i always behave..if u tell me i will try to change or not behave in the way that u dun like...hiding any comment from me abt me...that does not do me good...if u treat me as fren be true to me, when i ask u what u think abt me...be true to me..tell me abt my good and bad...if i feel that u are lying..than i will leave u...u will realise that i wun tok to you..i wun smile at you when i saw u when u ask me any question i will just answer without expression...
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28 October 2006 @9:19 AM
boring..sat again..sian...nth to do nth to watch...but sunday is worst...is more boring...now holiday le...so everyday also boring day..must be...by rite today i haf to go tution de..but is at 9 sia...so early is not at my hse leh...is at parkway leh..tt means i haf to take bus...so i haf to wake up earlier leh..wat the hell after exam liao still study so much for waht break a bit wun die de lar...that teacher keep asking me and steph to go then we both always think of excuse not to go...for today we say we overslept..haha..tt wed i say i sick..fri i say i not free...haha...all excuses..he say he is preparing for out O...for me not O is N...sian...haf to prepare the exam so far early...he even ask us to go tution every mon, wed, fri, sat....siao arh...he think wat he stay next door to me is it...no nid money arh...then my life will be all studying and studying..then not like me alr lar..wat the hell..want me becum bookworm also not like tt mar...cheh...no brain arh...maybe monday i go alr wed i say i injured here injured there cannot go...see...try to slack again haha...no choice mar...or not i am not sharon liao...if i study everybody will be so shock...hmph...my fren all ASSUME that i wun study..
actually i reall wun lar....should i go on the fri that one i really dunnoe...cause monther at home apoil all my mood of going out..see her at home no matter what mood all spoiled...oh saying of this let me think of ytd...hmm...ytd nite i went out with my mum to eat...then i walk pass this saloon...then outside this saloon sitting a hairdresser of that shop..he is the one who cut my hair lar..he recognize me...then he dian me..wa lao...make me blush u noe...can u imagine he dian me infront of my mother...i tell u his voltage is veri high...i blush for so long lar...but haf to control cause mummy ard mar..so sad...if he realli my bf then good lor..he damm funni lar..every tym when me and my fren go that saloon he serve us we sure cannot stop laughing de...he got alot of joke...even u reborn there u wun feel bored...cause u will keep on laughing for that period of time...wa lao...if he my bf then my love life will be full of laughter and not sadness like now...haix...but then he a bit too old lar...so sad..not fated...i really dun noe weather to cry or to laugh that he dian me...is like i so not pretty...no figure nth then he dian me...wa lao..i gif up...thining of it now...i still blushing...haix...high voltage...
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26 October 2006 @2:37 PM
DEAD OR ALIVE....hmm...this movie..EXCELLENT....ish so niice lar...the gals in the movie is so hot..they fight so well...they look cool...oh my god how i wish i am them...the way they fight is perfect lar...suddenly find that gals fight better then guys...haha...surely not all gals better la...like me..haix...forget it lar...to reach their standard is so impossible sia...now i alr struggling alr...how to reach there standard...walk and kick that one i alr a big problem alr alr...haix...fight like them i think i haf to wait long long arh..i mean their standard is like my master that standard alr lar...how to reach...in ten yrs? maybe...hopefully...haix...that movie is like so porn...the gals all wear so little...got one the best the gal FIGHT HALF NAKED and can u believe that is a PG show is not even n16 wa lao...then soo what liao...i can't imagine a show which is n16...haix tt irene had missed such a nice movie man...actually going but dunnoe what the heck she is busy with then dun want to go..haix..sad lar...lucky i watched...cause is simply too cool...better then powerpuff gal sia..haha just kidding...pwerpuff gal is just cartoon not cool at all all FAKE...even if this movie is fake but at least is nice and look real...if were to tell me those actress in the show nv learn b4 i so hard to believe it...from the way they fight and thier body build i really dun believe..scarely one of them is my master student..wa...cool...oh ytd i heard from master that one of the intrustor is going off...the sir jason that ang moh...oh poor melissa she must be sad man...her fav tuu..is going off...haix...i feel sad for her...
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25 October 2006 @8:36 PM
today 25.10.2006 a day when the whole sch got back there report book...oh my god...for my class alot of ppl die...9 drop 2 retain..wa so manii...then i am one of them lar...one of my fren mel when she get back her report book she cried..she found out tt she could not go express...but the thing is that she pass her end of yr is the overall she failed...haix..and she just borderline fail onli u noe..so sad...for me i just haf to pass one more subject i can go express liao..but then go alr also no use lar..i dun even think i can cope with the studies lor..is like if i remain in express next yr taking o level..wa lao..so stress lar...now i drop i will be taking n level next yr...scare my n level cannot pass...but nvm...no matter what there will be a way out...i dun really feel like appeal leh..cause i cannot cope...i noe i cannot cope...i am not ready for o ...my basic is still not there...not a single basic formula and so in my mind..haix..now haf to think how to tell my mum abt this...sian
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@8:15 PM
today training like mad sia...do 200+ push up again...wa lao my muscles just recover only leh then do again...after tt nvm still got the sit up...mad arh...120 sit up??? my muscle just recover only leh...then now i think dying le lar...hmmm...today i did five round of ground fight..wat the hell after doing all the exercise still haf to do ground fight...dun die also hard lar...at least half dead...last training slack...only did otwo or three ground fight and i dun want to try other ppl..this time round all diff...dying soon..tt irene arh..wa hiong sia..so fierce but then not as bad as melissa lar...but they both haf the similarity while playing this they both like to choke ppl lar...but irene's choking was okay...acceptable..still can breath not so bad not like melissa de...wa tt one cannot breath almost died..chock me so hard for wat...nowadays training is thougher..believe tt in no tym i will slim down..but actually i slimmed down abit alr...cause tt tym grading for my white belt to yellow train quite alot...then just do the kicks alr sweat...so okay lar..slim abit only...better then nv lar..tt tym the training was still okay now is more tiring BUT..I WILL NOT GIF UP SO EASY..cause my basic is still not there...no matter by hook or by crook i haf to make sure tt i haf to master my basic..basic not there die veri fast one so at least must haf sum basic and make sure is CORRECT de not wrong de...and my speed haf to train..wa alot to train sia...i am consider a poor or bad player inside soh i can stop thinking abt jump belt alr...wa lao tt cindy crazy de...got top in studies then now this training thing also top three..top anot i dunnoe i think all three same points sia...crazy lar..singing also not bad one u noe...wa lao...so wat sia..dunnoe what to say abt her..haix..
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23 October 2006 @12:42 PM
HMPH...I HATE HIM IA M ANGRY WITH HIM..HMPH...
i say i am one sided love and is hurting me he knew it...he say it wasn't a one sided love, is i reject it...he say i was the one who say i am not game for it...not he who say dun want me...so what if i am really his stead? he wun care for me either...all along things have been proving to me that he dun really care that much...as i said b4 y is it that whenever i was abt to gif him up and almost forgets abt him he msn me...wat the heck he cum and scold me..for what...he say i was the one who reject his love oh pls..even if i accept i dun see that he would care for me i would see his love towards me...all along in his life he was a playboy..how the heck u expect me to believe him? from all his actions that i saw with my own eyes i dun see and concern from him to me...no matter where i just could see that he is concerning otehr ppl more then me...so what the heck if am his stead...wouldn't it be tired if were to say i want to stead with him but cannot let ither ppl know? why should i choose this way when i haf other wayt o get close with him...every tym when i see him i just feel as though he dun concern me as much as other ppl...with this kind of feeling how the heck am i going to stead with him with i dun feel secure? thining of it it's really boiling my blood...hmph..he say is not a one sided love...does he mean he love me? hng..impossible...i dun feel that he is loving me...NOT AT ALL...not even a little bit of his love that i feel...if he wants to let me know thatr i am not a one sided love then show it to me that he love me...no matter what actions still speaks louder then words...but the way he prove that he love a person...haix...really not game for it...y can't he just show his love towards me by concerning and caring me and so on...since he say ia m not one sided love... never had i really feel happy infront of him...at least not in my memory...all the memory that he gave is sadness...none is happy...i feel so uneasy being infront of him...nv he had cheered me up b4..NEVER...how the heck am i going to go stead with a person whos heart isn't with me, who i dun feel comfortable with, who is not able to cheer me up, who i think i am not able to rely on his shoulder when i am sad...how am i going to stead with this kind of person...hmph...haiya dun tok abt him le lar...really makes my blood boils...still say i am not one sided love....THEN PROVE IT TO ME LAR....tok so much also no use...hmph...
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20 October 2006 @5:36 PM
he had changed me alot...he had taught me alot...
he is always surrounded by other ppl...i would nv see him the moment he reach the sch..as he is short and ppl who surround him are tall..he is being camouflage..at the same time oustanding..
even though he is consider a good guy or at least a guy who ppl could joke with..but i hate talking to him...
toking to him makes me feel stress as he is experience in life, he had seen the world, he knows ppl motive by every small movement tt the person make...all this experience he had gain in his life and lesson that he had been through...he tell us...lessons that he had learnt in life he tell us as a warning...he wants to make sure that ppl ard him would not walk the same way..and because of this toking to him makes me feel stress...sumtyms makes me feel naive
i want to leave him..but i couldn't...
i wonder how he think of me...i asked him b4 but his answer is no comment...maybe is i sensitive i still feel that he dislike me but he dun say it out...he is the kind of person who dun anyhow say things as he is scare that ppl who sabo him again..and so he warn me not to anyhow tell ppl thing...sum of the thing just keep it in mind...just becuase of this sentence "dun anyhow tell ppl things it might be an disadvantage'' makes me feel uneasy for the whole day..
sum of his words actually makes me feel scare...makes me think of what i had done..and is it rite or wrong...many things that i wish him to know but dunnoe how to tell him...in the past i had even set my mind that i dun want to tok to him anymore unless i had IMPORTANT
question ask and doubt to clear...
sum of his action or decision hurts me but then i nv ever told him b4 him...one of his decision on one of the sat nite in sep had actually hurt me alot only one of my fren knows abt this... she tried to consol me but no use as the hurt is simply too deep...nth could changed the past....
as the tym flys i feel more and more uneasy being with him...i find it uneasy to tok to him face to face, i find it uneasy to sit with him...i had tried to avoid him but i couldn't , there is no way for me to avoid...
there is alot of things i had kept in my heart and no bodys knows it...i want to let ppl know abt it but i dunnoe how to tell them...he seem to be the only topic between sum of my frens...sumtyms when my fren toks abt him i feel jealous and sad...but they will nv noe cause i would just hide it i would keep quiet abt it...
haix...if i had not known him i would feel more relax.
because of him my life is full so sadness and uneasy...everytym i see him, everytym when i am with him...all his actions is actuallybreaking my heart...is just that he dun noe...to him what he did in front of me is maybe nth but to me...is just like a knife which cuts through my heart...everytym when i see him i was wondering what makes him attractive when he doesn't haf the look, is it his talent that attracts me or is it his body build that attracts me? after knowing him i feel that i had changed, i dun noe what is the changes but all i know is am more unhappy...i dun tend to tell my frens abt my things that much not even dare to tell other ppl that i like him...i couldn't laugh anymore at least not from the bottom of my heart...i wonder did any one seen through me for not laughing from the bottom of my heart...in my laughter there is sadness but did any one notice? if were to say i am attracted by his body build or talent, i suppose i wouldn't like him anymore as he has been hurting me everytym..isn't it? but y..i still like him...y is it that i could feel that my love towards him so different compared to other ppl who i loved b4? i just get to noe him not long...not longer then four months..but yet it seems that i fall so deep for him...and now i feel like getting out of it but i couldn't...
i hate it...i really hate it...i hate myself for liking him...he knows that i like him but does he know that all his actions hurts me...does he? do i nid to tell him to let him know that he is hurting me? or do i just leave it alone? when i dun msg him.dun chat with him. dun call him ...when i decided to give him up..when i decided to forget abt him he called me he tok to me....is this signs that i am fated not able to forget him? or what?
one day...he found that i feel lonely he found that i am always the most left out among my frens...he came to consol me...he told me that he knew that i am lonely he asked me to believe him that he would be there when i nid sumone to hear my sorrow but i couldn't, he say is his promise i replied him fine okay i will believe...etc... but in my heart i dun..i dun believe him at all...is so hard for me to believe....even after he said tt to me i dun see any improvment of concern and so on from him to me..as i expected he wouldn't be by my side to listen to me...to lessen my sorrow in my life...in fact he adds on...i am glad that i nv believe in the first place...or not i would feel even more hurt....i wonder how long do i still nid to suffer like this? without him i couldn't reach my goal...
why...why is it that the god had let me met him? and allowing him to hurt me in this way...and i couldn't get out of it...why..why is that he is being sent to him or met him in the way that i couldn't avoid him and why is it that he is being put in a the place of my life that without him i wouldn't reach my goal..and why do i haf intrest in this thing? why couldn't i be like my fren who loves and haf intrest in studies in designing and so on...why is it the ARTS that i am intrested...why why why..if i am not intrested in this i wounldn't had know him..
haix...I HATE IT...I REALLY HATE IT!!!!!
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19 October 2006 @3:09 PM
yo...2006 macpherson idol is out!!! and is aizat!!! OMG...hmm...today heard my master sing the eng song dunnoe how to spell the title la...then another one is cantonese song by zhang xue yo...is v hard to sing..hmm alot of ppl also dun believe is his voice because his voice and his look and his age is totally not match...and his voice in singing and the voice in talking is totally different!!! no wonder no body believe that he can sing well in the first place...hmm in the first song the whole hall went quiet the moment he start singing but for the second song...er...lesser ppl listening to him le...cause is in cantonese and alot of ppl at our age dun understand cantonese...so no body listen lor...as ms s. says he is multi-talented...wat more he want...he knows everything....he know how to fight, draw,sing,compose song,compose poems...ETC....what more he want...haiya he should not change his mind by singing the cantonese song instead of the beautiful gal mar...if he sing beautiful gal i believe the hall will be even more quiet...adn alot of gal will die in his voice...one day we will see tt in the hapkido only gals no guy...as the gals was attracted by his voice and talent and the guys is angry with him for stealing all the gals away and so one day the hapkido maybe only gals no guys...haiz sad case arh(tok rubbish rite)...
the another idol for the macperson idol is the group category(ps:dunnoe how to spell) one of the gruop member is from our class...she must be damm happy lar...she almost cried out when she heard that she is the first...haha...the teacher even haf to tell her not to cry...hahaha...after the idol me and kayya went to SP to buy VCD...but thwn when we reach we realised is DVD then kayya was like huh...no VCD...haiya she must be heartbroken le lor....must be lar...sad case sia...haiz...
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