05 November 2006 @12:02 PM
ytd nite i had a chat with my fren we chatted ard 4 hours non-stop...wa...siao arh...first two hour she call me next two i call her...we chattered abt HIM...haix...in the past i always feel that he is really good can say nothing bad...but now came to think of it all he has is bad points...on the day when i feel that he is baised, he shows favourtism...etc i tot is my own opinion..i even tot the problem lies in me...because i am always not happy abt other ppl this and that...so i tot i feel that he being baised is my side of view only...but then after the chat i feel differently...we both agree that he does show favourtism and he is baised towards students who are good and also ahem...cannot say who...me and fren both feels that in hapkido we are the most left out...sadly speaking he really dissapointed the both of us badly...we used to scare that we dissapointed him but now we dun care le..even we dissapointed him so what...no matter how much we dissapoint him, we are sure that the dissapointment from him to us is even more...i am glad and happy of my choice for not being his stead...nv had i regreted rejecting any body before...all of them are jerk!!! nv trust guys that is what i believe in...nv believe them totally...want me to believe a guy totally quite hard...since young this is what i feel from guys...they are all liers...they dun speak truth and because of this reason i nv trust in BGR...as guys sucks..lie to gals...etc...hng...the changes that he make is really too much...since 12 of oct...the changes is 180 degress changes and nv stop changing...till now...he really changed into another person...me and fren now really dunnoe who is he now...i had nv regretted rejecting him despite my fren keep saying that rejecting him is just like throwing away a gold bar...but then now i was glad i nv accept him...one day he told me this...my eyes betrayed me one thing and he said my eyes betrayed me by letting him know that i like him...wth...my reply was okay.. whateva..lol... but in my heart i was thinking all u saw is that i like u..when actually i am angry with u...nv had he notice how the way we treat him nowadays...we treat him damm cold..he was not being honest with me...i asked him how he think of me or what he nv tell me anything but he told my fren what the @$$^#&$*^U#$%&...knn...from ytd we really found out alot of bad points of him...we are really really dissapointed...me is a person who will take revenge nv let in when bullied...so now i will make sure one day...i gif one shock...make him reflect on his own on how had he been treating us...how did his attitude changes towards all the rest of the students..my fren asked me one question she was asking why is it that we could not be like in the past when i dunnoe u well u dun noe me well chat and haf fun better then now i noe ur bad points u dislike me i dislike u...is like why...all i can say is this is call life...in our life we does experience different things everyday..today u experience the bitterness of love tml u experience the warmth of fren...etc...i am going so many training despite of the mental suffer that i will get every training is because of my aim...my aim is to let him shock...students who perform well in training does not mean that they are able to react well when they are attack...students who are not kicking and punches well does not mean they are not able to react well...so far all the training that we had until now we only had on scenario exercise...how could tt be enuff...i was really angry with him la...he yaun wang wo...i will nv forget that day..i will make sure if one day i am really being attack by a person i am able to defend myself and the method that i used is correct not anyhow hit...is like if u dun train in a scenario way u will not be able to react when u kanna attack....training in scernaio way is our own liking....so what even we train in scenario way..i noe i am rite what...u should not only depend on ONE scenario to learn every step and staunts that u learnt u haf to add in scenario that is the way to learn isn't it....hng....dun tok abt him le lar....making my blood boils only...he just watch out...one day i will make him shock...either when i am kanna attack by ppl or when i gif out my 100% ...he will just watch out..hng
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