21 April 2007 @7:51 PM
quit or dun quit....this question has been in my mind for a long tym...it has caused me trouble i really dunnoe should i quit or dun quit...what i haf to say clear is that i want quit is not bcz the training is tough is bcz i am unhappy inside...how i feel about it has change thus it makes me want to leave...then why am i not leaving when i could leave so easily..i can just stop going that is how easy it is then why am still going? i also dunnoe why..then why i not quitting? er..i think the reason is bcz of my character ba...i dun quit a thing that i join that easily....like guides even i dun like it i still stay until now...i can just stop going to guides just like any other fren of my and join another cca why didn't i quit..it is still my character..first yr i really want to quit guides really...l really hate it but i didn't quit bcz just find the teachers so irritating want quit still nid so many reason...just simply hate giving reas0ns...dun go my problem what still nid to explain meh...then second i start to have juniors and i stay bcz of my junior....third yr...i couldn't quit anymore bcz the teachers alr know me so is even harder to quit and i am ranked...so sian...until sec four...wa kao...confirm no nid quit liao lor...just bear a while jiu can le...i mean i dun like guides but still is tay for four yrs...bcz of juniors and eventually is like a habbit...so just let it be then...quitting hapkido sooooooooooooooooo much easier i just stop going can le lor...so easy no nid reasons also..so what the master knows me so what ms s noe me she wouldn't care i mena from wat my master say is that if u want quit then quit la...the person who quit is at the disadvantage not the person who stay is at a disadvantage...i am quitting hapkido is definitly not bcz is tough..if were to say training nowadays are tough then i dunnoe what is the past..in the past the training is tougher then now...i would stay in until now is bcz in the past i haf my frens inside and i feel good inside...the moment i go hapkido all my stress,my anger my dislike about anything will just dissapear just like that...my troubles will also go...but now..is the oppposite...it actually gifs me stress i dun feel good inside...felt left out...bla bla bla...my frens has left due to sum reasons...as for me? how i feel about it is it really tat important...going training is alr habbit...plus in the past we almost go training everyday isn't that worst....every sunday go training when free also go training standard training we sure go we wun miss it unless valid reason so going training is alr habbit...i had tried not going training on sunday and i felt so empty so boring...just like sumthing missing i cna't imgaine if i quit...i really dunnoe what to do to quit it then i must have sumthing to replace the training time which takes up alot of my tym what can takes up a lot of my tym? also dunnoe what i can think of is going tutions....that is the best i can think of numb myself with studies hmm not a bad idea...vexed quit bcz i am unhappy inside dun quit bcz of my character and the large amount of free time i will haf yet not knowing how to spend............help...i nid answers....
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